Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Listening...

Karl's Blog: Stardate Blahblahblah...



Just making sure no one reads this right? Just me? No one stumbled upon this by mistake? Good.



The thing about "social media" and the "internet" and "blogging" is that you can share whatever you want. You choose whatever it is you may want to say. One can be as vague or cryptic as they want to be, but, can still feel repercussions. Be it in the form of employers that believe you are breaking a confidentiality clause or friends that may feel you are breaking a sacred trust by making things public.

It is a great fiction that one can portray one's self as a hero, villain, victim, or what have you at any given time. What does "one" want to be?

Why all this existential mumbo jumbo? Why now? For me? Life happens. Then you ponder about it. You ponder hard. You try to distract one's self from pondering. Be it through work, booze, hiding from the world, read, etc...

Why is it when others have problems in their lives they discuss it with me? I'm not wise. I'm no sage. I don't even believe myself to be that particularly intelligent. But yet there they are. Them talking. Me listening. I listen well. Too well for my own good. All I offer is my particular take on their situation and offer unconditional support.

But what happens to the "listener"? Where does that sad sap turn to? What if other listeners turn to this one particular listener? What then? You soak up all this energy from everyone else. You put in a place to be secreted away. Which still brings us back to the problem of what happens when the "listener" is going through a rough patch. There's the dilemna. Kinda sucks right?

Vague enough?

Good.

No one in their right mind should read this.

This little known public forum.

Ever see that moment in a movie or tv show? Or read it in literature? That moment when the character reaches an epiphany? A sudden realization? Now what if that realization is a bad one. Deep down in your guts. You know how it will play out. You joke about it turning out that precise way. Yet you continue the ride. You ride it out. Fully aware of that worst case scenario. Knowing it will happen does not make it hurt any less.

So that is where my head space is at the moment.

Later Days.

End Transmission.

Saturday, June 02, 2012

Returning to something I miss...

Karl's Blog: Stardate Blah blah blah . . .

To think it has been a year or 2 since I have written a post. My last fracking post was a bloody widget about Canada's medal count in the Vancouver 2010 Winter Olympics. Pretty lame way to leave you all with my blogging prowess.

But why the long lapse from writing? I dunno, facebook? Twitter? The fact that I can't really talk about work. the fact that I have little free time do to my long hours at work? the fact that I have been pretty lame all this time? Basically, life in general.

But why do another post? Well I always kinda missed doing this exercise. My mind has gone lazy. But I thought I would put it to rest and let it slumber in deep sleep like I do with my friendster and myspace accounts. But anyway, I was talking with a friend via text and she made a joke about poetry. Which usually provokes me to mention that I have written only one good poem. EVER. And it is still a pretty lame poem in itself. So what do I do next? Yup. I show her the poem.  My oh so lame poem. However, I had to find a copy. Where did I keep a copy? My floppy is somewhere in storagfe hell. My old hard copy, the same as well. The easiest accessible copy was my posting of said poem on this blog. So away I went. Sifting through my archives. Posts that date back to 2003. Archives from 4 blog accounts that I combined into one inorder to streamline everything. It was a lot of work. Just to impress a girl with my lame poetry. Wow, nothing has changed has it. As I read through my old blog posts, I missed chronicling my lame life. The stuff that no one cares about, but, myself. My life in text. For all to see.

So there. That was that. I'm back. For the moment that is. Who knows how long till my next visit. Hopefully, not too long.

How do I end this again?

Oh yeah . . .

Later Days.

End Transmission.